Wednesday, October 1, 2014
The only upside to this disgusting and constant loose stool is that I have finally rid myself of pesky stomach pain.
Monday, September 29, 2014
Tuesday, September 16, 2014
Why are people so fucking concerned when they find out you're sick in the head? What is so significant and question worthy about clinical, chronic depression, that this normal girl wants to know? I made this shit for myself, by even saying it, but still, the imposition high schoolers employ on their poor introvert peers…
Sunday, September 7, 2014
also im going to be honest and completely honest
you guys with the special snowflake attitude and the nobody understands me schtick need to realize that
in the real world, NOBODY will tolerate your bullshit and you will be literally left alone and miserable spouting shit like “cis peeple die”
in the real world you have to act like an adult- not a child throwing a tantrum. Nobody will take you seriously if you hold one person rallies against things that most people don’t even understand because, by GOD! they’re not users of tumblr and not devout “social justice” freaks
though this pretty much applies to anyone with immature behavior and nothing that fully contradicts or compensates for it. Including, sometimes, me. You are literally fucked if you keep up your crap, potential employers will find out all you’ve done. I am not lying. And if they find your online history, well, then that little eulogy will likely prevent you from being hired. Nobody wants a nutjob with an attitude problem and an ego the size of Texas representing their company. NO ONE. Your online history is an open book and I too will eventually face repercussions for my own misgivings here as well. We all may make mistakes. But threatening to exterminate an entire group will be perceived as a form of terrorism. I guarantee.
Monday, May 26, 2014
Given, my pneumonia was worse friday, but... this is my current mood.
EDIT: this was taken two days before my hospital admission. I completely forgot. i'm pretty sure the anger's permenantly embedded on my face, or was, at this point in time.
You know, life sucks lately. I'm at a loss for inspiration, eleven or twelve days I've been ill, three days out of that I've been drunk, and three of those drunk days, I've posted things that have further aggravated tensions that I was trying to leave dormant, because when I'm buzzed, when I'm fully drunk even, under the influence of vodka! I don't know what I'm flippin' doing! But nobody cares about that, it's the mistakes you make under the influence that humiliate and make people unfollow without explanation and demean without context, calling you things like 'creepy stalker'!
It's really great. It's so great it makes me want to unlock the gunsafe that belongs to my mom's BF, take out a hunting rife, stick it as close to my mouth as possible, and pull that bloody trigger! It's that great! Thanks for the reconsiderations regarding suicide, you heinous human beings! You wanna see me die? Don't you??!!!! YOU WANT IT, DON'T YOU, IGNORANT FILTH?! ESPECIALLY YOU, YOU'RE THE FILTHIEST PIG OF EM' ALL, WALLOWING IN YOUR MUD, GIGGLING AT MY PNEUMONIC STATE AND MY ADMISSIONS OF SELF HATRED?
Thursday, April 17, 2014
Sunday, April 6, 2014
If you are not easily triggered, click past the break. Keep in mind that this was me in mid-March. I mean, I've recovered at an astounding rate but tbh I'm still depressed sometimes soooo please don't insult my sensitive little self thanks it takes a lot of guts to post this. I posted it to my tumblr originally if you wanted to find it you could but no I'm posting it here for reasons I don't quite understand
Monday, March 31, 2014
There's nothing I can really fill you in on, there's some things I might not mention, for personal reasons. Perhaps, after this is posted, I'll redirect you to my new tumblr. Maybe I won't. I don't know. This girl doesn't want to hurt anymore. I'm in a better place now, even if sometimes, I wish that better place was hell.... or even heaven, or some abyss where I'd drift for eternity, after committing suicide....
Moving along, this post is going to talk about a lot. It's nothing you should read if you want to insult me.... not sure if any of you AKF bitches still hang around this dingy little blog I own, but I should take the precaution of including a break.
forewarning: the following will contain vulgar language, mentions of -phobis, suicide, cutting, and many more potentially triggering subjects. if you feel uncomfortable at any time, stop reading. Resume your reading if you get ahold of yourself. If you don't feel like you can read further, please don't. I don't wish to burden you, and I definitely don't wish to give you suicidal thoughts.