Thursday, September 26, 2013


The time when usually lame bitches like meh gets to dress up. With my weight loss I've become confident enough to wear a slutty costume this year, so what should I go for this year? I'd rather wear a dress or skirt top combo, something that covers my belly.... so I was thinking of the following...
I still have nice hooters, so I want something that fits snug on the chest but poofs 'round the upper thighs, or is tight all over and can be coupled with one of those small petticoats and stockings. Gives me confidence. Makes me feel happy about myself for a night.
I'm trying to be classy-slutty, not cheap-slutty. The petticoat gives an extremely short outfit a classier lift. Cop / Sailor generally don't have petticoats or poofy skirts. I'm seriously considering something that looks like my goldilocks from middle school, at least, chest and skirt wise, except, this time with stockings.

This was my middle school costume. Literally, it's the exact fucking costume
Or at least, it looks like it. It's hiding downstairs among the billions of previous Halloween costumes.
I can't post pictures atm so here, take the picture link

German Beer Maid / Beer Girl
Sexy Heidi (to honor my quarter German blood liar liar you just wanna show off)
Swiss Girl (similarly designed to the German beer maid, except Swiss. I'm Scandanavian too, but Swiss are technically German)
Maid, as in French Maid
Fem!Robin Hood
Red Riding Hood
Sexy Strawberry Shortcake (ruining your childhood one costume at a time)
Snow White
Alice in Wonderland
Sexy Kitty / Mouse / Bunny (Mean Girls anyone? I'm a mouse, duh!)
Cop (or SWAT or FBI or CSI or local police, IDGAF)
Sailor / Pirate
Something gothic (vampire, goth fairy, wednesday addams
Sexy Mafia maybe? (There are some cute fem gansta costumes, and I'm talking mobster, not the ratchet)
Schoolgirl  (Nasujima territory, wandering into the Nasujima territory)

Things I Will Not Be:
Stripper (even for me that's too showy. it's not even classy-slutty, it's just plain slutty)
Pimp (I saw pimp costumes, and they are just too much)
Ghost (I'm not wearing a sheet over my head, and there are basically no sexy ghost costumes anywhere. I want something that looks like I put effort into prepping it, not a sheet)
Banana (no thanks, no Onision for me)
Flapper (does not look good on girls like me with more curvature imho; flappers = flat)
Myself in plain me clothes (self explanatory)
Hippie (except for maybe a short hippie dress, I wouldn't go hippie. The psychedelic colors hurt my, and other people's eyes)
A guy (that's guy territory, I wanna be a girl who dresses like a fucking girl. Genderbends don't count)
Ratchet anything (I'm no wigger, I don't try to act hood)
Nicki Minaj (Harajuku Barbie hurts my eyes. make up's too heavy, my butt isn't surgically modified, and Nicki's wigs are ridiculous)
Miley Cyrus (chicken butt? No thanks. Her outfits are all too belly baring for my tastes)
Anything that makes me look chunky. So, any one of those gigantic character costumes.
Plus sized anything (I am not)
What my sister is being (Tigger from Winnie the Pooh, they actually have bodysuits for that. She's too flat to dress as anything slutty and pull it off)
Southern Bell (not proud of being a southwesterner, so I ain't gonna wear no southern bell. Also, too long. Ruffles go down to your feet. NOPE)

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

iPod's dying

Thank god I have it backed up, I'm upgrading to a referb-d, not overused Gen 4 iPod now; it contains the same space amount, 32g, I just don't know if I'll be able to install the update, what with my 3200 songs (it was originally over 3900, I deleted a bulk of the songs that somehow remained on the iPod when I strictly remember deleting them and a ton of other tracks that were either duplicates or things I no longer had a desire to listen to)

The main reason why I'm doing this is because;
a. My volume button is cracked.
This happened with age, my 3rd gen is almost if not already, two years old. It's been used time and time again, and yes, I confess, I've dropped it. A crack developed in the volume button. It's only a slight nuisance

b. the headphone jack is severely overworked, and it doesn't want me to listen to my music in both ears. This isn't funny.

I looove music in my ears. in my ears, on both sides of my ears; left, right, 

while the sides are not perfectly balanced, I just love the sound. It's immersive.

 So when I noticed my headphones were all breaking, only allowing me to listen to music in the left or right ear, after being connected to my iPod, I was angry. However, when I rethought the situation, I guessed that the iPod's headphone hole itself was the issue. And I still think it's the problem. This is a major complaint from me; I hate blasting my music out loud, I'm quite sensitive to letting people see or hear what I listen to, especially in a public place. I guess I'm fearful that they won't like my music or that the music will draw attention to me, when attention from strangers is the last thing I want. Therefore I prefer to listen to my music using headphones or earbuds.

Monday, September 16, 2013

Gaining back the 3 lbs I didn't want to

I weigh 113 again

Juuuust when I swore I'd not gain past 110 , my exercise habits dwindled due to my school schedule… fuck.

It's coming to the point of where I'm quite obsessive about my weight and what I eat again, I'm quite hesitant to accept my not so skinny friend's snack offers… because, welllll I don't want to eat that fattening shit. I ain't even counting calories, I'm just avoiding all lunch and snacks till further notice. I can't force myself to get out of bed at 10 am in the morning and exercise, and I feel like… for lack of a better word, bloated. I've only gained THREE POUNDS.

I can't even walk the dog or eat a meal or even a fucking granola bar without feeling like an out of shape granny because everyone and their mother has been force feeding me. Not that I couldn't refuse, but then they'd definitely figure I'm sick. Also, I've not been able to exercise for an hour and a half due to my shit schedule, and as I stated before my unwillingness to do so in the morning.

Thursday, September 5, 2013

cable company cuts of internet / cable if the bill isn't paid

proves that the dicks just care about profit and not about consumers. But then again, it's  my mom's fault for not paying the bill. fuck.

/first world problems, am I right?

Now I can't enjoy CBS again, nor can I browse the internet using my computer. FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUF.
At this rate, I'd rather sit around bored then scrounge up enough money to pay the $188. Gives me more time to exercise and not sit around like a mindless drone.

At least the electricity's not going to be cut off, that I can be thankful for.

{things I also want to baww about: not being able to upload my photoshops, not being able to post to tumblr my photoshops, not being able to download music or stream youtube videos anymore on my computer, not being able to download anime episodes in HD anymore, etc> }

I would beg for money, but I have no desire to, I still have 3G service, and that would just attract a shitload of spammers. Which I don't want on my blog. Also, I know my mother goes crazy without cable, that she marathons Criminal Minds at night and on the weekends. She'll be paying them in no time flat.

Monday, September 2, 2013


this year, I am aiming to graduate from high school. That is, if I stop being a procrastinating fuck. Therefore, I'm really trying to work my ass off, and do all my assignments on paper, so I can finish without the distractions.
Anyway, that's the shit that's up with me.
Enjoy this transparent esper boy.

I'm back to 111 to113 lbs on the scale btw, fuck me.